Keep me dizzy spinning circles around my head, believe me that it’s worth the rush.

Ooookkkaaayyyy so didn’t eat carbs from Friday lunch to Sunday night. When I wanted to snack, I only wanted carbs so had nothing so it’s shown me I don’t really need to.

I’m kinda happy right now, so my current goal is to get to 135 I think (I think I’m around 144 I’m being generous not to be disappointed ). Things are going good, there’s great people in my life and my prom is on Friday and I don’t feel fat in my dress IT EVEN NEEDS TO BE TAKEN IN!!

Anyway, total up for chats if anyone wants any…

I hate people who reblog anorexic photos.

I know it’s not right and it just makes me feel fatter at which I give up and comfort eat.

It’s 15.40 on Friday the 27th of April and I am about to start a week of carb free.

Hey guys! I’m back :) I’ve taken a break and probably gained a few pounds but now I’m ready to take a fresh new look at it and go again.

Today, I will admit for lunch I will be having chicken curry and chips because it is the last ever ‘curry friday’ haha but my mum isn’t home so I have to cook for myself, which I’m thinking cous cous and sweet chilli steamed mushrooms (awesome). I also have hockey tonight and I might take my old pony out for a trot.

Eep, please anyone who still follows me give a message or re blog for some positivity or to help me get back some followers haha.

Love x

So basically, my granny is about to die.

..and I don’t know what to do.

See, she lives at the farm my dad and uncle work, so now whenever I go down there, she won’t be there to speak to. She’s in hospital and they think she might have a blood clot in her head cos she fell, but because we live on an island our hospital doesn’t have all the scanners so they can’t find out for sure without sending her to Aberdeen which she’s not fit enough to travel to.

You could say she’s on her death bed.

When I visit I spend most my time holdin back my tears as she looks so different..ill..

Because I’m stuck here on this island,
And I’ve lost her all over again,
Nothing gets better than memories
When all you have are memories for friends.
And I went searching when the lights went out,
And I went searching when my flight went down.

‘Cause I made a rope,
Can I throw it out to you,
You drag me back home,
I deserve to be rescued.
But still I have trouble with most days and nights.
But still I have trouble with moving my life outside.

Crash land,
So I can’t find you,
And just as things were looking up,
We’re fucked.
Don’t panic
Because there’s nothing here to fear,
Just don’t lose imagination,
Or luck.

I miss having lots of followers. Boo I miss my old blog :(

:’(

healthy eating starts again today :)

i hope i can keep this up, but it’ll be tough cos my mum is a fat bitch who constantly buys crap :(

A lonely place where you only remember I exist when your drunk.

Life is miserable.

I have no plans for tonight, nobody has invited me out. I hate life.

138lbs YESS!!!

Finished TOM on sunday, and was ill as a dog yesterday, couldn’t keep anything down, Finallllyyyy into the 130s